I climbed out

So after 3 or 4 days of moping around and feeling sorry for myself I finally came to a conclusion.

I can't exactly remember how it happened...it was a mixture of braces, a piano lesson, seminars, and a song. All of the sudden I became myself again. Maybe even better than I've been before!

My last post sounded like the audition had discouraged me but really its given me more deterimination for next time. This isn't the kind of determination to prove that I can do it or that I'll do it right next time. Its that there will be a next time and a time after that.

I still think I should make sure I'm doing what God wants me to do but I don't see any harm in making plans. However, these plans are very differant than what I had before. Its kind of hard to explain. Instead of making sure my life goes just the way the list in my mind says, I'm going to take it one step at a time and not worry about the future so much.

Thats not to say I won't hope or dream. I'll still make goals too. I think goals are a healthy thing because they motivate us to accomplish something. Plus, life would be boring without anything to dream about. I'm going to work towards my goals and dreams too by practicing and organizing. There is no use just sitting around and waiting for my "dream day" if I won't be ready when it comes.

So that is what I've decided. Don't ask me how those random things I mentioned at the beginning come into this decision. They really do but its hard to understand exactly how.

I did it (or did I?)

So..we had 4-H speech night yesterday and I got second place out of the seniors!! Yeah!! Now on to districts!! Wow, I really did not think I would do so well.

From looking at the comments and talking to the judges, I learned that there are still a few things that I need to improve on my speech. For one thing, I need to look up more. Wow, I must of been REALLY nervous because when I practiced I looked up A LOT! I also could slow it down a bit.

I also need to practice impromptu speaking which really sucked for me. The club topic was "What Would You Do If You Won The Lottery?" I had like no idea (although I'm thinking of great ideas now lol) My intro was great but then I was just like "I don't know. That is the end of the speech" My dad said it was the only time he'd ever seen me short of words to say!

Since my speech was about auditions, the judge suggested I pretend that my impromptu was an audition. Haha, she also said I could finish my speech singing a song..lol...maybe not

I need to remember though with every success in life to be humble and not look down on others. I have found humility to be a very good thing to have. Not only is pride something God hates, but it also DOES hurt us. I know that very well! Not saying I will never be concieted again..just saying that I'm trying not to be.

Gotta run!