Why Am I Who I Am?

Its a question I ask myself a lot...somtimes I wish I could be somebody else or just have differant personality and talents. I often wonder why God created me in the first place. I know thats silly, but I do. I'm just annoyed, hurt, and upset right now. Just one of those moments of wishing I was someone else.

Sometimes I just wish I was perfect...

Did everything right...

Knew everything I needed to know...

Didn't bump into things..

Always knew what to say...

Never lost my temper...

The fact is, I rarely do any of those things. I'm far from perfect, and whats worse, I constantly feel like other people are wishing I wasn't there or thinking I shouldn't be doing something because I'm not good enough.

I'm just upset right now I guess...last night at dance some so called friends started acting all snobby and mean. Today..well..thats a story I'm not going to share. Lets just say, I got REALLY upset but I couldn't cry because I wasn't at home so I started writing madly! Yeah that all sounds weird I know but its just how I'm feeling right now. I really don't know how to describe it...but I really just wish that for once when I decide to do my best at something that it actually shows.