Its a question I ask myself a lot...somtimes I wish I could be somebody else or just have differant personality and talents. I often wonder why God created me in the first place. I know thats silly, but I do. I'm just annoyed, hurt, and upset right now. Just one of those moments of wishing I was someone else.
Sometimes I just wish I was perfect...
Did everything right...
Knew everything I needed to know...
Didn't bump into things..
Always knew what to say...
Never lost my temper...
The fact is, I rarely do any of those things. I'm far from perfect, and whats worse, I constantly feel like other people are wishing I wasn't there or thinking I shouldn't be doing something because I'm not good enough.
I'm just upset right now I guess...last night at dance some so called friends started acting all snobby and mean. Today..well..thats a story I'm not going to share. Lets just say, I got REALLY upset but I couldn't cry because I wasn't at home so I started writing madly! Yeah that all sounds weird I know but its just how I'm feeling right now. I really don't know how to describe it...but I really just wish that for once when I decide to do my best at something that it actually shows.
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I hope nothing at theatre made you upset - you did wonderfully today running Act 2 and I was SO proud of you. (You weren't one of the people I was refering to about lack of effort - TRUST ME!)
ReplyDeleteI think we need to remember that no one is perfect. We are meant to stumble along the road and learn. I think everyone feels how you feel right now (at least I know I feel the same way).
It's hard when other people act snobbish and rude towards other - unfortunately there are some people in the world that do this. We just need to ignore these people and remember that God loves us no matter who we are or what we do - we are all special in our own ways!
Thank you Amanda! You are right - I do need to remember that no one is perfect and that I should ignore stuff like that.
ReplyDeleteThis post might of been kind of silly but I was really upset when I wrote this and needed to let it all out - which helped me a lot as did your guidance =)
What happened yesterday was at theatre but it was not anything you did or said. The person who discouraged me was not trying to make me feel bad (I don't think she knew I heard). I guess I just need to stop being so sensitive and appreciate my gifts for what they are.
Thanks again for the encouragement!
It happened at theatre?!? Grrrr!! That makes me angry!! Well, I'm sure whoever it was didn't mean to! And if they did, it's better that I don't know who it was... let's just say, I also have problems with my temper!! :)
ReplyDeleteEveryone says things that they don't mean, or they come out wrong- I've experienced situations like this one WAY too many times.
I'm so sorry Liz! All I can really say is that I've also been through it- and believe me, it gets better! People can be stupid, and other people suffer. I wish I could just hug you!! :(
Also, I agree with Amanda- you were FANTABULOUS Friday!! Not only have you known all your lines for ages (which continuously leaves me in awe)but you also have great ways of delivering lines- the ones that are funny actually ARE funny when you say them! :)
And about the sensitivity thing, DON'T stop being sensitive! I can even start to tell you how many times I've been reprimanded/ignored/despised/lectured for 'being too sensitive'. It's still really hard to talk about, but I can tell you, DO NOT listen to them!! Sensitivity is a GOOD THING, though it's taken me ages to realize this. If you need to talk, I'm here. :)
Anyways, sorry about this rant, for I've probably repeated myself many times and probably don't make sense, but I hope it helps!
LOVE YOU!!
*hugs*
oops, I meant I can't start to tell you, lol
ReplyDeleteAww Sarah, thanks so much! Your phone call REALLY helped and reading this is still an encouragement - its always great to talk to someone who has had the same experiences.
ReplyDeleteThanks for being there!
Love,
Lizzie
oh and thanks for teaching me about that s word! Now I'm learning to appreciate it :)
ReplyDeleteYou are doing wonderful at your part too!
You're welcome Lizzy! I'm really really glad!! :)
ReplyDeleteNo prob! That's good!! (LOL it sounds kind of funny... the 's' word is NOT the same word you're thinking of people!!) =D
Thanks Liz!! :)
See you Friday!
Love,
Sarah
LOL - s word! Totally not, hehe :)
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ReplyDelete(don't worry people!!)
haha